Nada's BrainDump

I dedicate this lyrics for them..my BEST FRIENDS, my inspiration, my strength, my happiness, my hope and my faith...

bunga itu hadir dan mengambil bagiannya di alam semesta.
dan layaknya segala penciptaan, bunga itu kan mati..

kehadirannya yang sesaat  mengajarkan kita tentang kesempurnaan dan kemegahan.

Rebutlah hari ini teman!
dan jadikan segalanya berarti..
Bersyukurlah atas hal kecil dan hargailah semua yang ada
Tersenyumlah teman,
Walau mungkin begitu banyak kesempatan yang telah terlewati,
Walau mungkin begitu banyak kesalahan yang tak dapat kita ganti kembali,
Jangan bersedih! Maafkanlah dirimu dan teruslah maju!

Teman,,
Hiduplah sebagaimana hatimu berbicara
Hiduplah selayaknya kau impikan
Alam semesta ini tak terbatas!
    
Rebutlah hari ini teman!
Karena segala impian, cita, dan harapan yang kita perjuangkan
Telah menanti untuk kita wujudkan
Dan segala usaha, lelah, dan keringat yang kita teteskan
Akan menjadi langkah –langkah yang akan kita banggakan

Maka teman,
Paculah dirimu..
belajar dan terus belajar..
Tetap optimis dan berbahagialah!
karena di balik kerasnya realita
ada cinta Sang Pencipta

Yakinlah teman,
Bahwa tiap momen kehidupan yang berarti
maupun yang telah kita lewati,
Ada untuk menjadi pijakan agar kita bisa berdiri lebih tinggi hari ini

Rebutlah hari ini teman!
       Karena Dunia sedang MENANTIMU..

 

i truly believe that everybody has its own perception of what music is. i'd like to share mine..

Music is not simply a random of notes

It is a creation of mind

A creation of love and beauty,

A creation of peace

music, i think

is a light that our heart is eager to sing

 

in every being

in every creation

there is a melody waiting to be opened

a tone waiting to be found

a song waiting to be heard

 

it is shaped from our deepest wishes

our deepest hopes

and also our deepest fears

or simply,,

it is shaped by our past, future and present

 

in each unique tone lies a single message

A single meaning

A reflection of our true existence

the music of our heart was never made to stay

It was created for a bigger purpose

 

A unique purpose

To find its place in this world

To find its place in life’s symphony

 

 

a great person once said, "it is not the darkness that most frightens us. but it is the light. We are all meant to shine as children do. it's not just in some of us, it is in each and every one. Liberate ourselves and by that we unconciously we give others permission to do the same"

 

liberate our hearts, and let our true song find its place in life's symphony..

 

I started out making a blog to explore my thoughts and get on with my fears. i've always been afraid of judgment, ,but after a while it bumped me "WHY SHOULD I CARE ??!" i never thought that my paradigms of myself was in a really low state until i realized that i'm not comfortable in my own skin. its like a part of me wants to scream..
Somehow i've been living a life in two parts. a part of me is brave enough to live my heart but after that id start to think, what would people think if i did this? its really frustrating living a life just to know how to pleasure somebody..even though from the outside people will think of me as an independent, confident girl. but the truth is i'm still learning to love myself. i keep having doubts about my action, thinking will they accept me if i do this or that?
i think one of the great things about leaving high school is you get more chance of understanding who you are. at first i was afraid of living my heart, always letting my fears make my decisions. but after awhile i got tired . after awhile theres somethin inside of me that just want to scream out and be a part of this world!

To see when others won’t 

To listen when people refuse to

And to speak for those who can’t

To feel when others have lost all
feeling

To stand in the memory of those who have
fought and fallen

And what they have fought for.

To stand with those who are fighting
still

And for those who cannot stand for
themselves.

To serve when called,

To heal when needed,

To understand before judge

Beyond sexuality, resources and
capability

Beyond race, color, faith or belief

To treat people as we would treat
ourselves

And to fight for their rights as we
would do our own.

Because inequality is an illusion

And each person a reflection of
ourselves.

To respect the right to life

To preserve human dignity

To promote and protect everyone’s
right and potential for development

In upholding Human Rights

We affirm our humanity,

With one voice, one mind, and one
heart,

We make and keep this vow

Penned by John Philip Pestano

Aduh gawat..mulai nih semangat2 penuh idealisme nada..
Nada pernah nulis gini di akhir taun pertama kuliah..

baru inget lagi sekarang..

bukannya nada sendiri yang bilang dunia kemahasiswaan adalah tempat berekspresi sepuasnya? silahkan kamu teriak sepuas-puasnya buatlah kesalahan sebanyak-banyak toh g akan dipecat, g ada yang motong gaji kamu, g ada yang minta pembuktian diri kamu. Maka hadapilah! Jalanilah dan ekspresikan semua jeritan itu, silahkan sebebas-bebasnya dan jangan pernah takut salah karena bukan itu initinya.

Inti kita berusaha bukan buat meraih kemenangan dan merasakan indahnya keberhasilan. Bukan itu. Inti kita berusaha adalah merasakan setiap momen kesusahan, menikmati setiap totalitas diri kita, inti kita berusaha adalah menjalani proses untuk mengumpulkan kepingan mozaic kehidupan yang penuh arti. Silahkan kalo kamu menang! Terimalah karena kau memang pantas mendapatkannya. Terima pula kalau kamu kalah toh kamu tidak gagal, kamu tetap berjuang, karena setiap kekalahan hanya akan memberikan bekal untuk menang di pertempuran yang berikutnya.

Keberhasilan itu bukan menang di tiap pertempuran tetapi jumlah menang yang jauh lebih banyak daripada kekalahan..layaknya sebuah kalimat bijak.. “kadangkala kita menang, kadang kala kita belajar..”

oya tambahan,, sms ini dari azel (my best friend) :

Seberapa jauh kita siap untuk menderita

Seberapa jauh kita siap untuk bersabar

Seberapa besar tekad kita untuk gagal lalu bangkit kembali

Seberapa dalam kita bisa menahan ego kita

Seberapa kita dapat bertahan saat dalam seolah tiada lagi
harapan

Seberapa kuat kita bertahan menghadapi segala rintangan

Itulah harga yang harus di bayar untuk menggapai impian kita

assalamualaikum..

alhamdulillah hari ini sangat menyenangkan, nada belajar banyak banged. begini ceritanya, mulai tahun 2008 di FK Unpad tercinta , ade-ade 2008 punya kakak-kakak mentor/fasil, akang2 dan teteh2 yang bakal ngebimbing (insya Allah) selama satu tahun di FK. dan nada senang sekali!!! i have the most wonderful little brothers and sisters. its really a blessing for me to have a new family here in FK..
my new family..


ada Ahmad, adikku yang semangat sekali. selama OSPEK ga pernah putus asa menjadi ketua kelompok kami, kelompok 16. entah mengapa selama OSPEK ahmad tanpa sadar di timpa jabatan aneh oleh angkatannya "Ahmad sang pembaca doa"..hehe alhamdulillah berarti temen2 percaya sama ahmed..another thing, ahmed is really like a little brother to me. kalo ketemu pasti manggil "kakakku!!" dengan semangat. dan itu bikin nada seneng sekali,,insyaallah ahmad diberi amanah sebagai KETUA KAMUS 2008..i trust that he'll do the best..

Odi, katanya sih kaya bunglon "morphologinya rumit" terus orangnya misterius..ternyata oh ternyata he is really really smart guy. you know, the Intelligent type person. awalnya sih masih insting pas OSPEK,,ternyata terbukti pas mentoring pendidikan. hmm..kadang-kadang kalo dikampus setiap nada mau nyapa odi, nada suka mikir dulu takut salah, karena odi punya kembaran = edo. kan akan tampak aneh klo tiba2 salah manggil hohoho...then theres another thing i learned about him, is that he is a gentlemen type of person too plus he likes sports..hmm nilai tambah!

san-san "sweet smile"..her smile is truly sweet. pertama ketemu san2, nada kira tipe calm (ternyata bener tes psikologinya).. tapi saat OSPEK nada sempet duduk di sebelah san2 sambil dengerin materi. kita diskusi banyak banged.. dan yang ada dipikiran nada, pasti tiap orang akan sangat bahagia dirawat dokter kaya san2. karena anak ini bener2 tulus, cukup dipoles beberapa taun di FK ditambah memegang teguh integritas dan prinsip. She will definitely become SOMEONE in the future... tau ga, sore itu di A3 teater kita buat kesepakatan, bahwa harus suatu saat nanti, entah kapan. we will be medical volunteers in Africa.. cant wait to discuss new things with her, and i am sure she'll find that 3, 5 year of medical school will one of the greates experience she'll have in her life!!

ada juga adeku yang semangat, rapi, rajin, dan suka warna biru dan lumba - lumba. her name is Muthia. nada inget banget pas OSPEK muthia pernah nanya kalo dia boleh pulang dan ganti sepatu,ceritanya bentar lagi kita tour de kampus. dan ternyata g jadi (sabar ya..) muthia itu so sweet banget, entah mengapa nada berpikir anak ini pasti suka belajar ( i meant learning everything not just textbook), oya one more thing..tampaknya muthia tipe orang yang diandalkan dalam tutorialnya (bener g ya?) muthia itu sekilas terlihat serius (sekilas yang teramat kilas,,naon?) tapi ternyat g gitu juga. nada seneng deh ngedengar cerita-ceritanya..ada aja yang bisa diceritain muthia..really sweet girl..i think i'll learn a lot from her this semester..

dara, aduh adeku yang satu ini..gmana ya, nyeritain nya? hmm..mungkin sesuai tes psikologinya kali..sangar (?) but truly graceful..bener g?  yang jelas nada sayang banged ama dara..dan lucunya dara terkadang memanggilku ibu ( sebenarnya dr SMA byk yang memanggilku begitu). dara sering sekali nada repotin, sering nada minta bantuan, dan dara selalu tampak bahagia...hehe, jadi deh nada repotin terus. kalo dikampus nada seneng kalo bisa papasan sama trio : dara, dilla, cindy..jadi semangat lagi! apalagi dara yang lucu, yang suka cerita apa aja. my lil sis lah!

Jiha, syu, puni my new malayan sisters..i first met syu and jiha on the tronton to situ lembang. well actually i have a confession to make. when i first knew that some of my "adik" will be malay, i kind of got scared..scared that i can't be a good "kakak" because of some diff in our culture..but it turns out after meeting jiha, syu, puni, ahsa' i was wrong... we're all the same here,,we're all just someone with a great dream of becoming a great doctor someday. no matter what country you came from. but here we're a family..

okay, back to jiha. she is a rare friendly girl (maksudnya?) bgini..well from the way i see it, jiha looks like the 'independent-girl' type. the reliable, tough type (kesan pertama nada loh). sometimes you're kind of afraid to get close, but it turns out she is totally okay. hehe,,today she became the 'ketua kelompok' (bhs inggrisnya apa y?). and she did a good job 'mengarahkan' teman2nya untuk belajar. well one of my suggestion for jiha is. she should be an activist in one of FK's organization..hehehe..they will love to have her. just a suggestion, i'm hoping to get to now more about her this semester..semangat!!

syuhada..i remembered her motivation entering medical school, its really sweet..it inspired me a lot. i love  being around syu..she has that calming aura. you know that motherly type (hehehe...its a compliment!). i didnt really know syu at first, but after our game of animals..i got to know that she is a colorful ,unique, energetik, consistent girl. and her smile is really sweet too..i think she's a fun girl and she is one of the best part of our new family!

puni, the first time i got to know her (still not much though) i think she's a smart girl, intelligent type. kaya odi tapi cewe.. i still need more time to get to know her.. welcome to our family!!

asha' is that right? welcome!!! i hope you'll like it here... SEMANGAT!!


nada seneng banged bisa punya keluarga baru di FK, dan alhamdulillah tiap taun selalu ada makna baru yang bisa nada ambil.
and hopefully this year will become my accelerating point. i know that i will gain much. for i will never stop learning and thanking Allah for all the blessing He has given. begitu banyak hal indah dan menyenangkan, begitu banyak makna dan esensi yang tersebar..begitu banyak kesempatan yang menanti untuk kita ambil..
begitu banyak pintu kebaikan yang siap menanti kehadiran kita..

semoga 4 tahun yang singkat ini bisa jadi lahan belajar dan lahan amal yang tak pernah habis,,,,